Oh yeah, I hear ya!
I don’t think I’ve met a single person who got everything right from the start. I somehow knew ACIM was for me, but honestly, in the beginning, I.DID.NOT.GET.A.CLUE.
What I knew was that I was called, and so I started doing the Lessons. That was after having tried again and again to read the text, without success. I would fall get tired, fall asleep or suddenly have a lot of other things to do (which is also one of fear’s many faces, but more about that in another article). The words would jump around on the page, and make no sense at all. One day, it was like a switch was flicked inside me, turned on, and it all made utter and complete sense.
Imagine this. ACIM is like relearning to speak a language you forgot. Instead of the English tongue which you excel in, in ACIM’s case that language being Fear, now you’ve chosen to go back to your roots. Relearning your native tongue, Love. If this was the case, do you think that if you picked up a book that you would be able to read it from the get go?
You’re relearning to speak Love. Relearning because you’ve only forgotten to speak it. It’s still there, all of it. ACIM only reminds you of your true nature.
Let patience and compassion be your companions on this journey home. Don’t hit yourself in the head. You’re not too late, it’s just the right time.